written meditation 01

this whole week (apart from wednesday) i am going to write for 10 mins as soon as i wake up, and then type it up on here.

here is todays (26/10/09):

Hummm. Fleh. I can't believe we almost hung it up woah-oh-oh-oh, woah-oh-oh-oh, we're just getting started. What songs that even from? I know its off Paramores new album, but thats the extent of my knowledge. I dunno what to writee. Looking forward to changing my bedroom round. A week feels too short! Today I think I'll do my chemistry hw and order the clothes from next. If I get time I might go into town and buy a pen & something to eat. Self development is an odd thing. I need to realise that it's ongoing and I can't do it in a short space of time like I keep trying to. I dunno whether to take eng. lang or eng. lit for A level. Ah well I'll find out on open evening. My mouth feels manky. Gross. Actually my head/nose hurt again. Bleh. I can't actually see what I'm writing. It's quite an odd sensation. I developed a character last night - Esme Glade. I need to stop wanting to be the people that I create. I need to accept my own background, my own looks, my own personality etc. as awesome because it's unique to me. Ok so I may not have moved from Canada, or travelled like a gypsy every summer, or began ballet at an early age and fallen in love with it, but I did used to go camping at civil war re-enactments, I have been to Burma, I used to sing all the time - alone at school or to my relatives, I used to wear floaty dresses and have beautiful long blonde hair. See, unique to me. Everything I've done, everything I do, it all combines to make an entirely unique person. No one, NO ONE, is exactly the same. And why did it take me this long to realise that?
10 mins are up, gosh i can realise a lot in 10 mins!
xx