Saturday, 17 April 2010

a thought

so i was lazily 'revising' RS when i had a thought.
on death, it said "some believe that there is no life after death, and that you simply end once you die".
which got me thinking..why /waste/ our lives? why waste this shot, which may possibly be our ONLY shot on being negative and miserable and doing what other people want us to. surely we should feel EVERYTHING fully, we should do what we want to do, we should make an impact on the world and not just drift by and hope nobody notices us.
lets get our act together.

Thursday, 15 April 2010

stolen from ems facebook :o

Are you ready for a long survey that actually has some new questions?
umm sureee

Have you kissed someone in 2010 that means a lot to you?
of coursee (:

What does the song you're listening to remind you of?
nothing is playing :o

How did you get your last bruise?
i can't remember, i always get bruises

Is there someone who you instantly smile when you receive a message from?
yup

Where was your default picture taken?
in my room

Name something you dislike about the day you're having?
i feel a bit ill

Are you disappointed in anyone?
As of right now, no I'm not. Those who would have disappointed me no longer do, purely because I'm used to it now.

If you are being extremely quiet what does that mean?
tired or a bit upset

Do you have a friend you can tell stuff to and you’re sure they won’t tell?
no. well yes. ish.

Will you be driving in a year?
might be

Have you made a mistake this past week?
yesss :o

Is there anything in your past that you'd like to try again?
yep

Where is your biological father right now?
on a train

Do you think your life story would make a great movie?
a romcom

Is your room clean?
yep i do believe it is

How many tattoos would you get?
just one

Is there a night you would like to put on repeat, and live it forever?
no, theres too much to experience to do the same thing over and over

If you had to get a piercing right now, what would it be?
i wouldn't, i've had bad enough issues with ears :s

What woke you up this morning?
dunnooo, i just..woke up...

What are you sick of?
being ill

Are you missing anyone/ something?
yes yes yes

Next time you will kiss someone?
tomorrow or saturday

Think back to the last person you kissed, how many times have you cried in there arms?
about...2? maybe 3...

What are some things you do when you’re mad?
throw things!

When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?
last week

How do you feel about your hair right now?
it's ok..gone a strange colour

What are you listening to right now?
the simpsons :)

Are there any stressful situations in your life?
prom and exams. mainly exams :P

Do you enjoy late night phone conversations?
depends how tired i am

Who is the last person to send you a message?
alexxxx :)

Are you wearing something that belongs to someone else?
no :o i forgot to wear my bracelets

Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
mine

When was the last time you talked to one of your siblings?
errr..oh i don't know, a while ago

Do you hate the last person you kissed?
nopee

Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
no

Who was the last person you changed in front of?
alex

Who is the last person you physically hit?
um..i'm not sure i hit a lot of people :P probably alex

Would you date someone if they asked you right now?
no...

Is it okay if you kiss people when you're single?
yes

Have you ever listened to music you hated just to fit in?
yes..

Will your next kiss be a mistake?
i doubt it

What was the last good news you heard?
today i think :)

If you had the chance to move to a completely different state, would you?
i don't live in a state :P i like sussex though so

What is something you’ve always wanted a girl/boy to do for you?
tell me why they love me, or write me a song or something like that :)

What do you wish you had more knowledge about?
GCSE subjects i'm taking :P

What food are you craving right now?
none i feel sick

What are the things you’ve learned over the past year?
i don't know..all sorts. Mainly that I love being childlike and silly and making people smile.

Whose birthday is coming up?
maras

Did the last person to hurt you, ever apologize?
nope

Who was the last person you had a conversation with on the phone?
alex

Do you think the last person you kissed is nice?
yes :)

Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 5 days?
nooo

Who last made you laugh harder than you have in a long time?
hannah

Do you start the water before you get in the shower?
no

Would you ever get someones name tattooed on you?
no

Who did you hang out with last?
hannahh

Do you LOVE anyone?
yes :)

Tuesday, 23 March 2010

why does everything make me cry

every 2 weeks or so i seem to get upset and have a proper cryfestthing :(

Friday, 19 March 2010

even when i do try i still can't win!

people say to me that i don't try enough when it comes to friendships...well then fucking try back! i can't do all the work! you can't say "oh well you never talk to me.." well you never talk to me either SO! argggghhhh

i steal surveys from peoples facebooks :)

What does it mean when you bite your lip?
that i'm thinking or nervous

Has anyone ever seen you completely nude?
well yes remember i did get born :P (hahahah such a weird way of phrasing it)

How do you feel about the way you look?
i'm alright

Who was the last person that you insulted?
my father...oops

Do you enjoy being naked?
not when its cold :(

Are you comfortable being naked around other people?
why are there so many questions about nakedness?

What time did you go to sleep last night?
12ish but then i woke up feeling sick at about 3 :(

Have you recently had plans with someone and they cancelled?
no, i cancelled, oops

Who was the last person to call you baby?
i don't think anyone has even called me that

Does it snow where you live?
not normally but it did this year :o

Are you listening to music?
nope, i'm watching 101 dalmatians!

What does your phone do when you get a new message?
vibrates which always makes me jump

What are you excited for?
health

Have you ever kissed a girl?
no

Do you know anyone that has been in rehab?
no

Are you single?
no

Do you like it that way?
i love it :)

Have you ever liked someone older than you?
indeeeeed

Do you have a strong relationship with your parents?
my mum

Do you know your best friend's middle name?
no :O

What woke you up today?
my mother

Have you done anything embarrassing today?
yes but cos i've been on my own there was no one to see it and henceforth it was not embarrassing

Do you like the colour of macaroni?
what colour is macaroni?

Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
yesss :)

When was the last time you were extremely disappointed?
yesterday XD

Are you a bad influence?
i do not know

Have you ever kissed someone that was high?
nope

What is the last thing you said out loud?
i can't remember :s

Do you sleep on your stomach?
no, no i do not

What is on your bed right now?
a duvet, a blanket, some pillows and probably some tissues (haha that wasn't meant to be dodgy, i have a cold!)

Do you have any strange phobias?
butterflies :) tho i'm only scared if they fly near me, i like watching them from a distance

Where do you usually spend New Years?
in my house

Have you kissed someone in the past week?
yes

Have you ever broken someone's heart?
don't think so

Who do you tell the most to?
hannah/cat/alex

What do you carry with you at all times?
phone...usually ipod too

Will your next kiss be a mistake?
no unless i accidentally give him my cold :(

When was the last time you saw your grandpa?
many many years ago

Who was the last person you talked to in person?
mother

Have you lost friends in the past 3 years?
yehh :(

Do you care if people hate you for no reason?
yeh but i'm learning not to cos a lot of people do

Do you drink tea?
not really

Have you ever talked to someone when they were high?
yess

Have you ever been out past curfew?
don't have a curfew

Are you happy?
i'm not bad, having a happy life atm but fed up of being ill atm

Is your room clean?
it's not bad

Has anyone got on your nerves lately?
yehh

Who was the last person to IM you?
alex

Would you shave your head if a family member asked you to because they had cancer?
family member? probably not

What would you do if the doctor told you that you were pregnant?
laugh at them and say "well thats impossible AND i've not been in a hot tub"

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
no

Are you wasting your time on someone?
no :)

Last thing that made you cry:
being ill and feeling unloved

Do you have a bad temper?
no

Do you think you'll be married in 10 years?
dunnoooo...probably not

How many funerals have you been to in your lifetime?
errmm...three i think..

What is your deepest fear?
being totally alone

Do you have a secret crush on someone?
nope

Are you proud of who you are?
i'm getting there

A book ever made you cry?
yep :) hahah

Wednesday, 17 March 2010

ich bin krank

ach nein! es ist nicht nett.

:(

Monday, 15 February 2010

survey :)

Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
closed

Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel?
nope

Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?
out, but my bed is against a wall and that side has to be tucked into the wall

Have you ever stolen a street sign before?
no but i'd quite like to

Do you like to use post-it notes?
yes but i never do

Do you cut out coupons but then never use them?
no

Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees?
neither

Do you have freckles?
in the summer

Do you always smile for pictures?
mostly

What is your biggest pet peeve?
errrm...i dunno really

Do you ever count your steps when you walk?
no

Have you ever peed in the woods?
no

What about pooped in the woods?
no

Do you ever dance even if theres no music playing?
yep

Do you chew your pens and pencils?
no

How many people have you slept with this week?
none

What size is your bed?
single

What is your Song of the week?
golden skans by klaxons

Is it okay for guys to wear pink?
sometimes

Do you still watch cartoons?
sometimes

Whats your least favorite movie?
errr i dunno..i don't have a least favourite but the knowing is awful

Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some?
in the beach :)

What do you drink with dinner?
water usually

What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
tomato ketchup

What is your favorite food?
speghetti bolognese

What movies could you watch over and over and still love?
yes man :)

Last person you kissed/kissed you?
alex

Were you ever a boy/girl scout?
haha no

Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?
probably not

When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?
decemberish

Can you change the oil on a car?
probably if i tried

Ever gotten a speeding ticket?
no

Ran out of gas?
no

Favorite kind of sandwich?
chocolate spread :P so cool

Best thing to eat for breakfast?
banana bread!

What is your usual bedtime?
12ish

Are you lazy?
quite

When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween?
nothing really...a witch i guess

What is your Chinese astrological sign?
virgo

How many languages can you speak?
2

Do you have any magazine subscriptions?
nopee

Which are better legos or lincoln logs?
ehhh?!

Are you stubborn?
i can be

Who is better...Leno or Letterman?
never watched either

Ever watch soap operas?
rarely

Afraid of heights?
yes

Sing in the car?
yes

Dance in the shower?
no

Dance in the car?
no

Ever used a gun?
no

Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?
never..

Do you think musicals are cheesy?
yes but they're great

Is Christmas stressful?
ish but it's good

Ever eat a pierogi?
a what?

Favorite type of fruit pie?
apple

Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
singer or archaeologist

Do you believe in ghosts?
i don't know

Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?
yep

Take a vitamin daily?
sometimes

Wear slippers?
am wearing them right now

Wear a bath robe?
again, wearing them right now :)

What do you wear to bed?
joggers and a tshirt or hoodie

First concert?
errmmmm dunno something that my parents liked

Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?
target, tho i've never been in any of them

Nike or Adidas?
adidas

Cheetos Or Fritos?
cheetos

Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?
sunflower seeds

Ever hear of the group Tres Bien?
nope

Ever take dance lessons?
yep

Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?
yessssss :) hahah

Can you curl your tongue?
i can!

Ever won a spelling bee?
no because i've never entered one but i was good at spelling as a kid

Have you ever cried because you were so happy?
yes!

Own any record albums?
no but i wish i did

Own a record player?
same as above

Regularly burn incense?
no i'm allergic

Ever been in love?
i am right now :)

Who would you like to see in concert?
sooo many people...kings of leon or bon jovi would be GREATTT though

What was the last concert you saw?
paramore!

Hot tea or cold tea?
hot tea silly

Tea or coffee?
tea

Sugar or snickerdoodles?
dunno what the second thing is

Can you swim well?
not really

Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?
yep

Are you patient?
ish

DJ or band, at a wedding?
band, always

Ever won a contest?
errr dunno

Ever have plastic surgery?
nope

Which are better black or green olives?
neither

Can you knit or crochet?
used to be able to knit but i can't anymore

Best room for a fireplace?
living room

Do you want to get married?
not sure yet

If married, how long have you been married?
N/A

Who was your HS crush?
my current boyfriend :)

Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way?
no

Do you have kids?
no

Do you want kids?
not sure

Whats your favorite color?
most colours, i am partial to pink though. and blue

Do you miss anyone right now?
yeh :)

Did you watch, Next Great American Band on FOX?
no XD